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<<audio ":all" stop>><<audio "alarm" loop play>><<type 100ms>>today was the day i [[died|last]].
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<<set $bio to 0>><<audio "alarm" stop>><<audio "static" volume .05 fadeto .1>>I'm just going to ignore this feeling, there's no way i'm going to die today that's ridiculous to even consider.<<type 40ms>> i do have a very important decision though what will get me to work on time? my [[bike]] or the [[bus]]
<</type>><<audio "alarm" stop>><<audio "static" volume .05 fadeto .1>>seeing as it's my last day i'm in no hurry. so i hop in the shower, going through my usual routine, shaving and bushing my teeth pretending like its conserving water. Stepping out of the shower just as my foot hits the floor i realize i had forgotten my bathroom carpet in the dryer the night before. <<type 40ms>>the carpet was the only thing that kept me from [[slipping|slip]]. <</type>>apparently i was going to die some other way. thank god too, although my head fucking hurts, dying in the bathroom would be so embarassing.<<type 40ms>> The good part about dying today though was that I could take my time and eat a nice breakfast. and, while opening a pantry to nothing more than [[cereal]] or [[toast]] is a bit disheartening, it's better than nothing right?<</type>>after a wonderful meal of stale lucky charms and questionable milk i knew i should leave the house quick. <<type 40ms>>If i'm going to die, why in the hell would i waste today in my nasty apratment when theres a whole fucking world to [[explore|skip]].<</type>>
<<set $cereal to 1>><<audio "toast" play>><<type 40ms>>I hear the toaster pop and grab my [[knife]] to pull the toast out.<</type>>this feeling just would not go away, but i had work to do and i just had to ignore it.
<<print either ("<<type 40ms>>as i walked up to the door there was a sign posted that the building had been temporarily [[closed]] due to a natural gas leak<</type>>" , "<<type 40ms>>I just scurried up the staris to the fifth floor and snuck into my office, luckily no one noticed i was late so I just got to work until [[noon]].<</type>>")>><<type 40ms>>either im showing up to work [[late|accident]] or taking the [[shortcut|work]], which while fast is a bit of an iffy ride...<</type>><<print either ("just as i decide to take the bus catch a glipse out of my window and see it down the block. i go as fast a i fucking can and just a i burst out the doors i miss it, i missed the bus... again. I guess im just going to [[skip]] work today, <<type 40ms>>maybe it's a sign i've got to make the most of today.<</type>>" , "I just barely caught the bus the driver was even impressed I made it on. <<type 40ms>>if im gunna shake this feeling i decided i have to go to [[work]]<</type>>") >>this is some of the most beautiful weather I've seen in a while, kind of ironic for the day i'm going to die huh....
<<type 40ms>>i'm not dwelling too much i gotta have some fun i've always wanted to go to the nearby [[woods]] and the [[aquarium]], but maybe i should just explore the [[city]] see if there is anything special happening.<</type>>well if i can't to work i may as well [[wander|city]].
<<type 40ms>>i'm really begining to think this might be a sign that i have to have fun today, it really might be my last...<</type>>NOON! i'm free... for like an hour, missing breakfast has left me fucking hungry too i know i have some leftover [[spaghetti]] in the office fridge or <<type 40ms>>maybe ill go [[out|tacos]], treat myself since i've been feeling like shit all day.<</type>><<audio "microwave" play>>i put the spaghetti in the microwave for a couple minutes while i scroll on my phone and within seconds i stat to smell burning.<<type 40ms>> i look up realizing i had left the [[tin foil]] on my leftovers<</type>>i joined a few worker at a nearby taco truck we chatted and ate, it was quite a good time. they even invited me to drinks after work. i'm realizing that not everyone i work with is terrible, which is nice.<<type 40ms>> But of course time passed and it was time to [[return]] to work.
However the feelings of dread hadn't passed, if anything they were getting worse i was really considering running off to the [[woods]].<</type>>the second half of the day went by as well as work can go. really i was just excited to leave. <<type 40ms>>going out with my [[coworkers]] sounded like fun but i had also gotten an email about reduced cost at the [[aquarium]] which also sounded fun.<</type>><<audio "nature" loop play>>i take the bus as far out as it goes to find the outdoors, it arrives at the base of a nearby mountain and <<type 40ms>>i decide i can either [[hike]] up to the waterfall that i used to love as a child or just take a [[nap]] in the sun at the picnic area near the base.<</type>><<if $cereal is 1>>
<<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>i started to feel super sick while walking around town and eventually i threw up in the street to then only look up to see the car[[...|wake up]]<</type>>
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i decided to explore the city, i felt like some nice [[seafood]] could be fun, i've never tried shellfish due to a common allergy in my family <<type 40ms>>and I've always wondered what it tasted like. but i'm not super hungry since i just ate breakfast so maybe i should just [[wander]] and see what the city has to offer<</type>>
<</if>>i don't normally [[drink]] but since the feeling of dread kept growing i decided <<type 40ms>>i may as well right? but also maybe this was just a [[feeling]].<</type>>I show up at the aquarium and it was weirdly empty, i guess that's what happens on a weekday.<<type 40ms>> I grab a map and see a few interesting tanks i'd like to go and see, [[sharks]], [[turtles]], and the [[touch tank]]<</type>>
<<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto .15>><<type 40ms>>it was super fun to hang out with new people, but i still felt this dread and all i could think to do was [[drink|pass out]] about it<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>i decided to leave because i kept feeling like everything was going to kill me and as i was just thiking and walking my vision all the sudden got really bright[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "static" volume .15 fadeto .3>><<type 40ms>>my drinking got a bit out of hand and everything started to get really <<print either ("[[foggy|passed]]" , "[[foggy|forest]]")>><</type>><<audio "static" volume .3 fadeto .1>><<audio "naturenight" loop play>>I don't remember how I had gotten to the forest but I knew I was fucked, <<type 40ms>>it's dark and I can't find my phone this had to be it, all I could do is [[wait]] for something, anything to happen<</type>><<type 60ms>>
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<</type>>i show up to the shark tank and see all my favorites, horn sharks and zebra sharks! i sit and watch for a <em>while</em> <<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and then i decide what i want to move on to the [[touch tank]] or the [[turtles]], or if i want to leave and wander the [[city]] or the [[woods]]<</type>><</timed>>
<<set $bio to $bio +1>><<if $bio gt 1>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>as i look around i notice a sign that wasn't on the map, [[bioluminescence: creatures of the deep]], taht looks like quite a good time.
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<<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>i go to the turtle exhibit and can't seem to find them. i look around, the tank is huge so there's lots of places for them to hide. and as i'm looking i hear a crash and look behind me and see a massive torrent of water coming at me[[...|wake up]]<</type>>i go and see all sorts of fun creatures, im a big fan of rays so that was a super fun way to spend some <em>time</em><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>but as i finish up i decide what i want to move on to the [[sharks]] or the [[turtles]], or if i want to leave and wander the [[city]] or the [[woods]]<</type>><</timed>>
<<set $bio to $bio +1>><<if $bio gt 1>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>as i look around i notice a sign that wasn't on the map, [[bioluminescence: creatures of the deep]], and that shit looks like a good time.
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I start hiking with only a vague idea of how to get there but honestly i didn't have anything better to do so if i get lost it is what it is.<<type 40ms>> so i go on [[hiking]] through the beautiful wilderness.<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 0>>feeling the sun beat down on my face is one of the greatest pleasures in life. there is nothing quite like it. as i drift off to sleep nina simone's voice echos in my head:
<<type 80ms>>"birds flyin' high, you know how i feel
sun in the sky, you know how i feel
breeze driftin' on by, you know[[...|nap2]]"<</type>><<audio "restaurant" play>>i found a nice resturant downtown called <em>The Rockfish</em> i had heard good things about the food, not so much the prices but this very well may be a last meal situation, so i was sat down and looked at the menu.
<<type 40ms>>[[shrimp]] with parsnip puree and yuzu spheres
[[lobster]] over a bed of micro greens tossed in mustard vinegrette
[[crawfish]] fried with various deconstructed sauces
[[scallops]] in kombu broth with lime oil
[[crab]] raviolo in a smoked pancetta bolonese<</type>>after wandering the city for a while i decided i had to find something to do, crossing the street without looking loses its mystique after a while. ending up in an alley i realized i could just climb a [[fire escape]], get a new perspective on the city. <<type 40ms>>i also considered leaving the city and just going out into [[nature|woods]].<</type>>
<<timed 13s>> <<type 40ms>> as i was considering my options someone walked by and handed me a flyer, it had a couple events on it, i was interested in both a house [[show]] and a small local [[gallery]] showing, both tonight.
<</type>> <</timed>> <<audio "eat" play>><<type 40ms>>i looked down at the beautiful dish i had been served in awe before i went in for my first [[bite]]<</type>><<audio "eat" play>><<type 40ms>>i looked down at the beautiful dish i had been served in awe before i went in for my first [[bite]]<</type>><<audio "eat" play>><<type 40ms>>i looked down at the beautiful dish i had been served in awe before i went in for my first [[bite]]<</type>><<audio "eat" play>><<type 40ms>>i looked down at the beautiful dish i had been served in awe before i went in for my first [[bite]]<</type>><<audio "eat" play>><<type 40ms>>i looked down at the beautiful dish i had been served in awe before i went in for my first [[bite]]<</type>>i climbed the fire escape somehow just in time to see the sun setting,<<type 40ms>> i don't know how i'd wandered for that long but here we are. after watching for a bit it really dawned on me that i was going to die today, i had realized it when i woke up but it felt different. i realized that i could go [[back]] into town, try to have some fun, let nature take its course and see what happens or i could take matters into my own [[hands]].<</type>>
<<audio "aquarium" stop>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto .2>><<type 40ms>>i show up at the address marked on the poster. and the place is fucking [[packed]].<</type>>i showed up to the gallery early, it was open but the artist talk hadn't started yet. looking around the work was beautiful<<type 40ms>> i really just had the impulse to [[touch|arttouch]] it. and now i wouldn't normally let the compulsion win but if i was dying today who cares right?<</type>> <<type 60ms>><<linkreplace "watch" t8n>><<linkreplace "watch" t8n>><<linkreplace "watch" t8n>><<linkreplace "watch" t8n>><<linkreplace "watch" t8n>>[[watch|watch2]]<</linkreplace>> <</linkreplace>> <</linkreplace>> <</linkreplace>> <</linkreplace>>
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<<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>today was the day i learned that statues fall[[...|wake up]]<</type>>that makes 115 toasts sucessfully removed with a kife, i know i shouldn't but there is something so thrilling about this slight rebellion to this universe that i just cant shake. <<type 40ms>>and if im dying today anyway, why the hell not?
As I finish up eating my "danger toast" i quickly get out of my dreary ass apartment to take on the [[world|skip]]<</type>><<audio "static" volume .05 loop play>>8:30... I woke up late yet again, however this sense of dread was new. Knowing I'm going to die really made going to [[work|hungry and dirty]] seem futile but maybe it's just a fleeting feeling, or <<type 40ms>>maybe I have to make the [[most|late]] of my last fucking day.
<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>i don't know where the car came from but it blindsided me and in that moment the dread i'd felt all day left my body, for what was an eternity of a fleeting moment i felt at peace with this, everything was ok[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "microwave" stop>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>BOOM[[...|wake up]] <</type>>
<<audio "static" volume .3 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "naturenight" stop>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "restaurant" fadeout>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>i guess the shellfish allergy was passed down to me[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 1>><<type 40ms>>i sit with myself for a little while longer and as i stood up i [[slipped|jumped]]<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto 0>><<audio "heart" loop play>><<type 40ms>>i stepped up to the edge of the building i had climed with the clearest mind i had ever had, there was no panic i knew it was the end whether i [[jumped]] or not.<</type>><<audio "heart" stop>><<audio "static" volume 1>><<type 80ms>>i had never seen the city like this, fully in motion and stuck in space like i could never had experienced otherwise[[...|wake up]]<</type>>
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<<audio "static" volume .05>><<audio "nature" volume .5>><<audio "heart" loop play>>HOLY SHIT <<type 40ms>>i see a large shodowy figure what i make out to be a bear. I can feel my heart racing in my head and i can't remeber if i can just [[run]] or if im supposed to stand my [[ground]].<</type>><<audio "static" volume .05 fadeto .8>><<type 40ms>>i book it in the opposite direction only to see a smaller bear whch is when i realize i've made a grave [[mistake]].<</type>><<audio "heart" fadeout>><<audio "static" volume .05 fadeto .1>><<audio "nature" volume .5 fadeto 1>>i stay fucking still and the figure approaches and i soon realize its just a couple out on a hike. <<type 40ms>>i'm still sweating but i may have never been more scared in my life, so much so the dread had left me entirely, but as i [[continued]] on it began to sink back in.<</type>><<audio "heart" stop>><<audio "static" volume 1>><<type 80ms>>i've never seen so much blood in my life[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1>><<audio "waterfall" loop play>>i hear it, i pick up the pace and find the waterfall i was looking for! it really is a sight to behold.
<<type 40ms>>i sit for a while just in [[awe]] of the sheer amount of water that is moving at such a high speed.<</type>>there has always been something so magical about flowing bodies of water to me. moving to the edge of the water fall <<type 40ms>>i feel the compultion to [[jump]] but the beuaty of nature has lessened my feelings of death so i might just go [[home]].<</type>>sweatshirt and all <<type 40ms>>i leap over the cliff and feel more alive than i ever have before. and then i [[hit]] the water<</type>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto .25>><<audio "waterfall" fadeout>><<type 40ms>>i start walking home in what i can only imagine is the [[right]] direction.<</type>><<audio "nature" fadeout>><<audio "naturenight" volume 0 fadeto 1>>hours pass and im still walking. i'm completely lost. it's getting dark and i haven't felt like i was goinng to die more than i do in this moment. <<type 40ms>>i decide that since i don't know how to start a fire i should continue to wander and let [[god]] take me<</type>><<audio "naturenight" stop>><<audio "static" volume 1>><<type 40ms>>[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<audio "river" loop play>><<type 40ms>>
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<<audio "static" volume 0 fadeto .05>><<audio "river" stop>><<audio "waterfall" loop play>><<audio "nature" loop play>>I'M AWAKE!<<type 40ms>> exasperated i say as im being jostled awake by a hiker. she must've seen me jump or at least wash up on shore. I feel like shit now but the feeling of falling makes up for it.
the hiker ends up taking me back to town and drops me off at [[home|house]].<</type>><<audio "nature" stop>><<audio "waterfall" stop>><<audio "static" volume .05 fadeto .1>>I get home and microwave a meal for myself. <<type 40ms>>i watch a movie while eating and eventually decide i must just feel like shit for nothing. so i start preparing for [[bed]].<</type>>
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<</timed>><<audio "microwave" stop>><<audio "static" volume .1 fadeto .3>>I grab my bathroom rug from the dryer and toss it down. after pissing and changing i put on some music <<type 40ms>>to brush my [[teeth]], the song gives me a good timer to gauge when i'm done.<</type>><<audio "static" volume .3 fadeto .5>>as im brushing my teeth i begin dancing to the music and feel my foot slip out from under me. <<type 40ms>>I look down and the world is in slow motion, i see that the bathroom rug was upside down leading to me slipping.
however i felt a sense of peace i have never felt before.
an acceptance of what was to [[come]].<</type>><<audio "static" volume .5 fadeto 1>><<type 80ms>>my head crashes in to the toilet and my tooth brush gets loged in my throat, i guess i really was going to die in the [[bathroom]].<</type>><<audio ":all" stop>><<type 100ms>>THE END<</type>>
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<</timed>><<audio "static" volume .2 fadeto .5>><<audio "party" loop play>>i walk in and the whole place reeks of weed and booze, as i walk through i'm handed various things to take, <<type 40ms>>i deny them at first but as i get more overwhelmed i begin to take what ever i'm [[handed]]. <</type>><<audio "static" volume .5 fadeto .9>>the sense of overwhelm really just managed to emphasize the feelings of death that have plagued me all day,<<type 40ms>> so i just keep taking substances, drinking, smoking, pills all of it. until things [[begin to]]<</type>><<audio "static" volume 0 fadeto .1>>as im sitting in awe at the jellyfish my focus is broken when someone taps on my shoulder, <<type 40ms>>they hand me a flyer to a house show that's happening tonight. i decide to go to the [[show]] because why the fuck not, it sounds fun<</type>><<audio "static" fadeout>><<audio "aquarium" loop play>>i walk into the bioluminescence room and i'm met with such beauty, jellyfish all around glowing in the dark, <<type 40ms>>it's as if magic were real. I want sit down to [[watch]] although, i have been at the aquarium for a while, maybe it's time to [[leave|wander]].<</type>><<audio "static" volume 1>><<audio "party" fadeout>><<type 100ms>>fade away[[...|wake up]]<</type>><<cacheaudio "heart" "https://ia801600.us.archive.org/26/items/nighttime_1/heart_beat__72_bpm.mp3">>
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